Isn’t feeling like that a good thing though? If you’re sufficiently miserable there’s a good chance you’ll actually get the work done. This also works if you feel embarrassed or feel that others depend on you, but in my case I’m going to have to depend on the former.

It used to be that I didn’t really grasp the scope of most projects, and so after research I used to dive right in. These days I’m more jaded and try to make better long-term choices in terms of software (which is ridiculously hard because you never know, example: Terraform is no longer FOSS).

The extra work is usually in optimisations or security configuration, both of which I’d like to have done but apparently I don’t feel horrible enough to actually do it.

Yes, I have done both of what you said. It’s not a hard-and-fast rule for me, but it does make me a bit miserable, that I didn’t finish what I started. Sometimes, that acts as a catalyst for me to get back into it and actually try to finish it, or leave it completely after understanding that it’s beyond me.

Thanks for the advice.

I definitely fear projects being unfinished, and the apparent “mountain” of work that might be the new personal project I want to work on definitely intimidates me

I know what to do, what should happen (in theory), and I want to do it. But I waste my time away. Is there a way out of this?

No ADHD AFAIK.

Well, the stuff that I procrastinate on is inherently private and likely shouldn’t be allowed access to for people outside. In doing so, I only stay accountable to myself, and we can see how well that has gone

Absolutely. But I want to do it, and yet I procrastinate. This has got to be a serious flaw in personality to procrastinate in doing a hobby

That’s a difficult question. This is a hobby that I’d like to be more diligent in

To clarify, I’m talking about being motivated enough to host public facing services like Invidious and SearXNG, maybe a Monero node. But I’m lacking motivation when doing things strictly for personal use like a project tracker for my personal projects, a personal media server. Basically, since I’m accountable to no one, I don’t feel the light nudge I need to get to work on something.

In terms of hosting software, sure I can read about configuration. I tend to have the overall process planned out in terms of what to expect.

The main problem is, let’s say I give an hour a day on hosting a FOSS project. I could easily give it 4 hours if I were motivated, but I’m not. Because I procrastinate and waste time. It’s only during the later hours at night when I realise I have a deadline (need to go to bed) and my mind kicks into overdrive and I accomplish whatever I can in that hour.

That’s the behaviour I’m trying to solve.

I will try it, thanks

It would be nice to not be lazy for my own needs for once lol

I see. I think it’s the same case as me, I need realistic deadlines to really focus.

Unfortunately, I don’t have anyone that I can say this to. Any automated methods to induce such a feeling?

Your saying I’m lacking motivation because I’m not organized enough?

I’m also a privacy and security enthusiast, and everyone wants to have their library of Linux ISOs on Jellyfin lol. I really should get to it

I mean there’s no strict deadlines for personal FOSS hosting projects, so I don’t think so.

Maybe I’m just lazy

I have no idea what you mean

Yup that’s the problem, my mind is screaming at me to do it but I feel lazy every time I touch the configs. It’s like I lose motivation.

Maybe I should take a long break

I think I’m pretty dumb. A third person would be very contextual; a third person who is a guru in FOSS, or a random person from the street?

All I really want to do is to find motivation to host FOSS, both for myself and the world

Unfortunately, I have no one like that.

I like FOSS and I like the community. It’s probably just in my character to be motivated for someone else, which is why I’m looking for ways to trick my brain

Yeah but some things are best consumed privately, and a media server is probably one of them (because I’m not going to do any requesting pipelines like sonarr/radarr etc)