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Cake day: July 29th, 2023

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  • What you’re describing sounds like a pretty deep hole…and you’re right, it’s going to be a monumental task to find your way out. You’ll make progress slowly, and sometimes even lose it. But it’s not impossible.

    It’s a grind, and you won’t be able to keep it up 24/7. Just be willing to come back to it.

    You can take off days, weeks, whatever you need. Just be willing to come back.

    How you do it will be for you to find out, but I’ll share what is helping me:

    It sounds simple and cliche, but “lie” to yourself. Nothing big at first. Just find anything positive, or anything you can frame as a positive, and change that narrative in your head. If you think the old “truth,” correct yourself and move on. If you repeat the same lie enough, you start to believe it.

    Journaling is fantastic. I literally just vent to an imaginary person… A great start to any day is taking a few minutes to write down anxieties, fears, angers, and anything else that is weighing you down, too.

    Those two are pretty universal, and I’m willing to try and help you find more, if you’d like. Just reply or DM.

    And I can’t say enough about step programs (like AA) for any addiction. You can find some amazing support in them.

    You -can- do this.


  • I’ve never been addicted to alcohol, but I’ve been addicted to a few other things, including self hate. (Literally, not figuratively)

    It’s comforting because it’s free, readily available, and takes almost no effort, and it’s virtually impossible to fail.

    The first thing you have to do is want to change, and that part sounds so simple. Like most people, of course I wanted to change, but was I -ready- to? That’s… harder. Loving myself, doing better, getting better… It can be terrifying.

    I can’t hide behind the mask of the Failure if I do that. It gives me a perfectly valid excuse to be a piece of shit, if I’m trying to be better, that excuse goes away. If I’m going to get better, I’ll have to -do- better, and that was an overwhelming thought…

    Others here have offered some great advice, too. AA meetings, Lemmy communities… It’s near impossible to do alone. Find and share strength in others.

    If any of this resonates with you, it may be that you need to confront the fear of being a better person. The fear of losing your excuse to be useless (as you put it)