I’ll definitely be going, there’s no going back on that, it would be incredibly silly of me not to. I think I’m just finding it hard to adjust to life changing around me again. I had a really rough time growing up and university did me a whole lot of good, I adapted really well, got good grades, was social, and I’m just afraid of taking myself out of my comfort zone by moving when this was pretty much the first and only time in my life that I’ve felt fine.
It’s even more silly because I’m not even done with uni yet, I still have one more year to go in my master’s. I’m just the kind of person that tries their hardest to plan their future, but right now I’m staring at a great unknown that I can’t rationally manage and find it hard to just “go with the flow” - is it even wise for me to do that?
I might have worded things a bit poorly - it’s not only about the internship (I’ll be going, of course) but more about things changing and trying to decide between paths(do I move abroad or do I stay where I am? do I even like my field as a job? what do I value/want from life? et. al.) im not sure how to handle not having a streamlined path ahead anymore.