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  • I have a remarkable connection to reality when I eat mushrooms, it seems. I can just point my brain in a direction and it will go as far as I let it. For me, and I don’t know what to call it, I have an interesting “reality bubble” that I can “stay in” if I desire. It’s a part of my brain that knows that everything I am seeing is not real and where I can make somewhat decent choices if I need. I have a tripping inner dialogue as well as a “normal” internal dialogue that keeps me sane. It’s… Interesting.

    If I have a task to do, like drawing something or working in CAD, it will keep my brain somewhat focused albeit with a ton of added flair.

    And no, I can’t control all of my thoughts but those still remain somewhat superficial and are not really that intrusive. However, letting my mind go free and letting me think about things from a different perspective is probably the primary reason I trip. My personal mental barriers that I have put up over the years are needing to be torn away so I can become the good person I strive to be and deal with some aspects of my past in a somewhat healthy way. I have no fear of a “bad trip” as I view it as an aspect of my life and personality that needs further exploration.

    I should note that I have a very high tolerance and psilocybin is a perfect match for my personality type and brain chemistry. (Weed, for example, gets me super paranoid and is not for me.) I can easily eat 5-10 grams just to get me started and have eaten as much as 20 grams throughout an evening.

    Short term memory loss is a thing as well. I can completely forget what it was a wanted to think about, but after a bit, I can usually get focused on something. What usually happens is that my brain figures out the solution to the problem I wanted to think about extremely fast so there is not much to ponder on. :P




  • remotelove@lemmy.worldtoSelfhosted@lemmy.worldOld PC as Server
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    11 months ago

    Old hardware is awesome to reuse most of the time but it’s not nearly as efficient as our hardware today.

    It’s probably good to just properly recycle the old gear and spend $200 on a mini-PC from Amazon that has three times the power all while using less electricity.

    I usually completely tear down old equipment into is raw materials, the best I can. It’s less likely to be shipped off to another country for uncontrolled destruction and I get more money back for the materials.


  • I will echo many others here: It’s going to be rough getting good deliveries. While you are planning on running a proxy, that is basically the same as running an open port where your server is. While it may seem to be a good idea to send email from a random AWS address, it really isn’t. Unless you are behind an IP that is specifically trusted as an email source, your traffic has a higher probability of getting dropped. (Many dynamic IP ranges for home internet connections are marked as invalid or untrusted sources, btw.)

    Additionally, email servers are a hot commodity, especially if they are not blocked (yet) by the larger filter providers. All it takes is one or two reports or a poorly configured firewall/IDS to auto-trigger a submission of your IP address as “bad”. By hot commodity, I mean you are going to get fuck tons of vulnerability scans. It’s not the end of the world, but it’s super annoying.

    If I was operating as a Jr. Security Analyst again and saw and sus traffic coming from your address, I would submit a block and not think twice about it. Hell, most of those types of blocks are automated anyway.

    However, if you do set one up and all is golden, great! It’s worth the experience but something I won’t ever do again. (Yes I did run my own email server before.)









  • The “midlife crisis” is real. For me, it’s looking for new things to do, cutting out bad habits (drinking) and am trying not to think about how life is actually all downhill from here. I am not going to buy a sports car or anything, but some healthy experimentation with psychedelics does seem to scratch that itch.

    I think I rationalized my fear by understanding just how much shit I have seen and I still have another 30 to 40 years left, which is a good thing.


  • That is kinda what I was hinting at. If we define pain as something that causes a defensive (or similar) reaction, then sure: Plants react to “pain” in their own way. I have never seen a jellyfish react to “pain” though.

    When my chinchilla starts barking, it’s easy to assume that he is in pain or otherwise uncomfortable, but to say that he is truly in pain is impossible. However, when animals hurt their foot and start limping, it’s a good theory that they are reacting to pain. My examples only include mammals though, to your point.

    Excuse my rambling. I am not disagreeing with you, but just thinking out loud.